Introspective Dream

What is the universal law of action? If faith alone is not enough and one must act upon it then what does it mean to ' act' ?    inspired action  occurs when you are following your heart and doing what makes you happy Is it something you physically/forcefully have to attain for?  But then what is considered the right action? what is considered physical and if the desire you wish for is vague and unattainable through physical means, then what then?  Humans have always lived by hard work and it is a preconceived perception that nothing is achieved in life without proactive efforts and constant practical decisions, so much so that we can tire our self out and lose sight of not only what makes us happy but also the desire in which we wanted to manifest in the first place. There is no balance and no one seems to know it all on what the best way is. But what about living on that faith/manifestation/desire, by being on that which you want to experience? for instance; ...

I fall down like a  rock slide, the barrier of myself locking me in a slippery pit and I can't get a hold. It's like one step forward and right back to where I began again unravelling and disintegrating.  when will i reach the true me? the better me? In the end was it all for nought? did I really know anything? did I even make it? maybe we all don't have it figured out but it's hard to tell and  in uncertainty, it breaks me down. Perhaps it would have been less of painful thing if we were all together in this, undivided by beliefs, conditions and walls we made. where we don't have to look desperately to pretending masters who look so perfect, as if they have it all together, and the uncertainty breaks us down. If we can recognise the master in all of us to share with each other and say It's ok , we can do this just keep going. Holding out our hand to each other so we can help each other get out of this pit. without conditions Without dis...

Dear child of angels I am sorry. I'm sorry that we fell and forgot who we are I am sorry that we felt so scared that we hid from ourselves. I am sorry that we lost the innocent joy and magic within us because the liers told us to. I am sorry this world we have made has worn us down; blinding us, stolen our hope and joy, silenced us. I am sorry we hurt ourselves and locked our aspects away. And I am sorry for all the hurt we have done to others and to this world along the way. I am sorry for the losses and pain, for the flame that died in us. I am sorry that we put our trust in deceitful hands that tell us we are less and we need them to survive. I am sorry we gave our power away to illusions. I am sorry no one saved us, not even ourselves, from ourselves. I am sorry for the shadows we made, for the authentic light we locked away to the point we became afraid of us. I am sorry we became this way, dead and hollow. I am sorry for the ruin, disrespect and pain ...

Dear universe, May those who have fallen in fear and are blinded by it see peace. I wish for those who are scared and overwhelmed find calm and joy. Please send them love and light on wings of gold and violet. Help them see the silver lining, to be surrounded with compassion and to open their eyes so they can see the world with a'new. May they find love for themselves, for others and for the world we live in and find something that brings joy; genuine joy, into their lives. And that they find courage and support through the changes and transformation. Please embrace them. Everything will be alright. You are loved and supported. Love, Ondine So let it be, thank you.

Golden rays threaded and pierced through the veils of distortion, through the field of lies and negativity and through to the very heart of Gaia, creating a vortex of shimmering evanescent light which created golden threads dipped in rainbow dew of divine essence and of the highest truth, sewing it's love and codes into the hearts of the collective. Uniting them all and uniting them with Gaia,  with the divine source, with all the universe and back into themselves.  In harmony, peace and unconditional love with understanding and calm. And as each thread pierced through each individual of the collective, they started to awaken, started to see and felt the great calm and inner peace. Realised the falsity of fear and let it go , came together in compassion and found new meaning in the world. The golden light spread like an ocean wave; like fire, cleansing the earth of impurities, negativity and distortion. The air was clearer and sparkled with living glow, sang songs ...

Entry - 15/07/2017 I have envisioned me in a white room and upon asking what it was I wished for , I tell a wishing star what I wanted the most. I said   "I want to be free,to be with nature to be in a place surrounded by beauty without civilisation,cities,corruption, oppression. A world without any advanced race, just me, mum and nature" I saw myself in a world without corrupt hands of humanity, of the cabal and of 3D denseness or the like.  A world of magic, free to roam the beautiful land full of life. To breath in the fresh air, connect to the musical leaves and grass, to lay and dream beneath starry and bright skies. Feeling at peace, I found a dead tree surrounded by beautiful flowers and forests and strange fluorescent plants. Carving and hollowing this tree I make a home; creating a mound connecting to the tree with dirt,soil,rock and dead logs. I carve an extension and plant flowers alongside another tree on top of the roof of the mound carpeted ...

Drag my body across the coals and grind me to dust, bone and soul.        Fling it wide and lay it bare upon canvas so dark Where I sleep among the night, Floating , dissolving.  And my insides are all void until I become nothing, a dazzling nothing.

Lovingly dedicated to my Aquarian mother, may your days be filled with sunshine. Ondine

I decided to do a tarot reading for the collective with the disclosure of truth in mind and not only did I get a “yes” but also The tower which means a big change is afoot. Big is not great enough of a word to describe this...it is catastrophic, it will rock our world where everything we once knew will change; old beliefs, conditions, attachments and structures will “collapse” and the comfort of the lie will be gone. I followed this up and it will lead to grief , where we will need to sort through and reflect upon morality, ethics and past actions as well as process our pain and issues to find peace and resolution. All those built in emotions and darkness to be dug up and realised,transcended. The world needs to allow themselves that, it won’t be a fun phase though it will be necessary for healing, we will have to face the monsters which we fear and the truth which we try hard to deny and hide from, shattering us emotionally, perhaps ...

“We make our world significant by the courage of our questions and by the depth of our answers.” - Carl Sagan This question we always ask, usually at the crossroads of our life when we question all that is and who we are.                        “What is the meaning of existence?” Nothing, perhaps there is no meaning,it just is. Perhaps the whole point of our existence is to just be, to experience ourselves and perceive ourselves through different lenses, through different forms of perception mirroring each other. For instance, that bird on top of that tree, is me, another form of me which I am perceiving and who is perceiving me. That tree is also me and I am that tree. What about that child, mother, teacher, store assistant, elder on that park bench or the passerby who we don't even glance... It's all the same. Perhaps this too is the root of true compassion and understanding.  So the meaning of life,...

Anima/Animus, Like the shadow, are aspects within ourselves that when denied can act out against us and our approach in life [in nightmares,relationships,reactions,etc].  All things that are denied, persist until seen, accepted and integrated/let go. Once integrated and the marriage [between Unconscious and conscious] into balance and harmony is complete, can one walk the bridge and unlock their truest potential and divine self, thus finding the peace and love they have been searching for.  The same is said with relationships we have with others and the needs we project onto loved ones, whether it be Twin flame, Soul mate, romantic relationships, friends and family. We have the gift of mirroring these denied aspects for each other but many do not realise this until it reaches a pinnacle point. We try to look for love which we believe to lack, in others. It is not found Externally in others but Internally within yourselves.

 I thought last year was tough, but I should have been expecting such a storm coming from the decade of Aquarius before it hit me in the face with it. It caused all the old stuff which I thought I dealt with to come back, the self sabotage along with it, something which I thought I had surpassed. Self-love was new to me, at least after my tweens it was...to Love ones self is to create the capability to love others, to help others [which was my intent] but the doubt led me to question [as I was feeling pretty apathetic lately] whether it was all for nought but perhaps compassion is different from holding emotional attachment and feeling constantly? “why let others tell us who we are? Who we are supposed to be? Why bother to act like someone who we aren’t? Just to feel good? So to feel no shame? Hoping if by trying we will eventually see light and won’t drown and fade?” I have been faced with another shadow aspect of mine , I accept that I hold negative traits [ as every...